Lani's Second Character: Phoebe (WIP)

In what situation is your self esteem most at risk?
"Alone, around people that would judge me."
What are you keeping a secret?
"I have no secrets to tell."
What are you lying to yourself about? To others?
"If I don't have anything to hide, why would I lie about anything at all?"
Is there anyone in your life that you are attracted to?
"Is that truly your concern?"
What scares you about this person?
"This is none of your business."
What do you think he/she can do for you that no one else can?
"Is this line of questioning right and thoroughly finished?"
What does this person know about you that no one else does?
"I'm not answering these questions."
How do you decide of you can trust someone?
"If they've earned it."
How do you know you love someone?
"Should love me such a fluid, fantasical concept as it is believed to be, I don't feel like any words would be able to describe such a feeling. As such, beyond family and friendship, I don't bare "love" for another."
What parts of loving come easy to you ? Hard?
"I find it easy to care for another, to tend to any wounds or scars they may have, but hard to accept decisions they make that would ultimately harm them."
When you walk into a room what do you notice first? Second?
"How many hiding places I can fit myself into, and how many people I have to get through to find them."
How would you change the world? The things around you? The people around you?
"In my opinion, the world is due a change, but not so much in the world itself, as the people within it. There are hearts of greed inside many, but it takes more than simple words to sway a heart. The best laid plans of mice and men, after all... As for what's around me, I am content with my own life, on a day-to-day basis. The people around me, however, mostly need to bugger off and stop trying to make me into something I'm not with their outlandish tales and rumors."
How do you learn best?
"Verbally or through study. I can follow by example or doing, but do best with written or spoken context."
What are your goals in life?
"To make more for my family than they already have, and to do so without losing myself or any others under our name."
What unusual hobbies or interests do you have?
"Some seem to find solitude and reading unusual, I suppose. That is there loss."
What are you most afraid of?
"I suppose 'loss' would be the first thing to come to mind."
If you had one wish, what would it be?
"I... don't find a need for wishes. Besides, this question warrants more thought, as the simplicity of quickly sputtered request can lead to some... unwarranted outcomes."
What do you like best about yourself?
"I do not feel so much pride at myself that I feel a need to brag on it, but I suppose my intelligence."
What do you like least about yourself?
"The things I could say here could likely fill a novel. However, I'll simply state that I'm not fond of my shortcomings, as they apply to personal, social interactions. Business inquires and meetings are of no problem, but anything that delves into myself is an entirely different matter."
What do you like best about your best friend?
"I find it more fitting to group my two closest friends equally. As such, my simplest answer is 'themselves.' There's a dynamic one establishes with people they've known since they were young, a loyalty and an understanding that can't be achieved so simply in others."
What do you like least about your best friend?
"I suppose that depends on which one we're discussing, yes? One can be a bit haughty, though he can hardly be blamed. The other, I suppose, seems too... I'm not sure. Perhaps I could say that she lacks the strength of spine to achieve what she wants."
What do you think other people think of you?
"Oh, I'm quite sure I know what other people think of me."
Teachers: "Smart, but pays little attention. It's a wonder she can maintain the marks she does."
Other kids: "Kids? Those in my age group are practically adults, at this point, but as you wish. Honestly, I'm everyone's little freakshow. Hardly a day can pass without the snide remark that bounces between either 'prude' or 'slut,' though the rumors that spread deal with nothing of the sort, instead focusing on how I'll probably go crazy one day and kill everyone, like some mass school attack or something. Honestly, I don't know where they get it from. No one's ever seen any sort of temper come out of me; I'm just quiet."
Best friends: "Ah, I suppose I'm still a bit of the oddball here. Not quite so high a station as to match the one, but above that of the other. I still don't talk much around them, so I'd hope that they'd just find me friendly but reserved. I've certainly been told more than once to stand up for myself, so possibly spineless, or some more pleasant form of the term."
Parents: "I'm their pride in joy, from what they say. They wish I was more adept at handling myself in social environments, spending more time with my peers than my personal library, but all in all, they adore me and think they've raised me well, thus far."
Siblings: "One of my siblings is barely old enough to speak, but I'll endulge you. I'm... tertriary caregiver of the boys, and tend to them whenever mom and dad are away. Admittedly, they probably find me boring for the most part, but I can make them laugh."
Other family members: "Most of my extended family knows me less in a personal sense and more in a business fashion. As such, I come off as bright, outgoing, and a critical thinker with a knack for economics and problem-solving."
What’s your greatest source of frustration?
"Helplessness."
What’s your greatest source of joy?
"Discovery."
What are you especially proud of in your life?
"Thus far, what I've learned and achieved for myself, from my critical friendships to the knowledge I've obtained through study."
If you could change anything about your life what would it be?
"In all actuality, I'd probably prefer to study at my own whim, rather than in a strict environment such as school. However, such is the demand of society."